Sunday, February 11, 2007
i really have no idea what to type. to me, i've been mostly numb to results for exactly four yrs. my PSLE results made me cry my pants off then somehow results don't mean so much to me anymore. results will just limit the choices that you have, but it still leaves you with many choices, trust me, i went to crescent with my crappy results and realized now even if i scored 299 for PSLE i would still choose crescent, seriously.
now i didnt do badly for o's at all regardless of what i said. i did above expectations for myself. and it'll be lying if i said i wasnt happy. i really was. but then, something just made me really confused/lost. and maybe what i wanted wasnt what i thought i wanted. and i'm afraid.
i only put four schools down for my choices and there's two of them i don't really want there. but i really don't know what i want, and it doesnt help that my parents are letting me make all my decisions, but i really love them for everything they've done and i know they're the best parents ever for me.
four years in crescent and friends whom i hope to have for a lifetime. but i know time will pass and i'll eventually lose contact with some of them. but i promise to try my best to keep the friendship. really, i wish the best for the friends i love most all the time. sometimes, i think i wish for them more for myself cos i don't know what i want. but i hope they're going to enjoy themselves wherever their results take them too, and that we'll still keep in contact. cos really, i wanna thank them all for being there. and it means so much, that memories, forever etched in that time of history. and you know i'll tell everyone about it. crescent, 1C3 2C3 3S3 4S3. i wouldnt want to have been anywhere else.
to the friends i really care for:
just make the right choices and see where it takes you. i'll always be hoping the best for all of us. i give you my utmost sincere thanks. really, for making life seem so much brighter and splashed with a billion colours even a HDTV cant come close to. i hope you'll be happy wherever you are.
i really hope from the bottom of my heart that we'll all be happy. and its always been my dream for everyone to be happy too. so smile and really we're the lucky people in this world and i'm so fortunate and blessed to have met you.
LOVE
siew who will still be siew forever. you can call me cheryl too. but deep down inside, i'm still me and i really love my life. its ups and downs, even if i say i don't like it at times, i really am glad cos i have the most wonderful friends and family. so who i am to complain? even if i died today i would have been happy. be it 54pts or 6pts that i got for my o's.
Thy sang her last verse at coffin 12:14 PM